Hopeful13,
Know how u feel. I dun have high hopes for my 3rd fresh. I jus feel I need to go through whatever chance I have in front of me. At the end of the day, i have done what I could do even it didnt work put. No regrets. I'm approaching 40 and i dun many 10 years left so I try to focus what I have and what blessings I have in life. Grieve on ur sadness even if it mean being an unfriendly person for a while or antisocial towards ppl around you. They may feel we have changed cos they dun know what we're going through. I read from online that ppl like are normal to behave in this way, it's very human, to the extend of being antisocial. But most importantly, we pick up and move on with our lives. Be it Christianity, or Buddhism or other religion, we're here on earth temporary, make full use of it. Nothing we can bring with us when we leave this world. I know it's not easy but if we could get through this big challenge, i think we can be a happier person than we have been before.