hi keyt,
From what I know, it's nice to be in gifted programme bcos the class size is really small. So teachers can devote more attention to the individuals. And once you get in, it's almost like your future is set.
I think in life, many a times, we need to be cruel to be nice. They are only kids. If we don't push them, who will? I don't think I've high expectations. I am just trying to make her aim high. I don't want her to follow my footsteps. Since young, my parents made us feel that a university education is something beyond us and never talked to us about it. And very often, my mother put us down by saying that it's no use for us to study as we're not 'studying materials'. It was ingrained in us that studying is something really difficult and beyond our ability, and has a lot to do with luck. And becos I got a zero for Spelling the first time I took it (as I forgot to learn it), my family taunted and teased me for a lifetime, and used that to measure my intelligence, or lack of it.
My parents never talked to us about what we can do when we're adults. They never told us the importance of money either. It made us think that money will automatically come when you are an adult. It sounds incredible but when you're not taught about something, you really wouldn't know it. Even when I became an adult, subconsciously, I still had the same belief that somehow, money will come my way no matter what job I hold.
I didn't think that I could have a degree to my name until I was very old.
Since young, I wasn't very loved and didn't know what it meant if a person loves me. So I had a lousy bf who treated me really badly most of the time, but once in a blue moon good to me. I thought that was love, bcos he was nice to me anyhow. My friends told me he was bad to me, but to me, he was already very nice to me becos there were times when he was nice to me. I thought it's becos they only saw the bad side of him.
It's all very scary when I think about all these. I just know that I don't want my daughter to suffer the same way I did, or to have the same warped values that ruined my life, and make the wrong decisions all the time.
I want her to be the exact opposite of me. Outspoken, confident, makes right decisions most of the time, believes that everything is possible, and does well in her studies and knows that you need to have good qualifications to earn the right amount of money for a living.
So sorry to type such a long post. I got carried away sharing about my thoughts.