hi, i'm in my 8th week of pregnancy now. i had been ttc for the past year n was getting anxious as i just turned 35. Due to our age, my husband and I went for tests to rule out everything n eventually the docs at KKH called it unexplained fertility cos everything seemed normal.
Towards the end of 2014, i felt like maybe i might never be a mother. Yes, just after 1 yr, because everyone around me kept getting pregnant so easily. At my last doc's appt at KKH, i met Dr Tan Heng Hao. He said we needed to decide if i wanted to try IVF or continue trying. I told him I wasn't ready for IVF n that I wanted to just take a step back from ttc for the next few months cos i was stressed. Dr Tan is a Christian and asked if we are. We said yes. He then said, "just pray." I felt assured from speaking to him n decided to not do anything till our next appt in March 2015. At that pt, i surrendered to God n just continued praying.
In early Feb, I started feeling a bit sick (headaches, cramps, etc). Just thought menses was coming. A friend of mine asked if my menses was late cos sounded like preg symptoms n i realised that it late. Did a preg test n was positive! I couldn't believe it n did a second preg test just to confirm. It was the best feeling ever!
At 5+ weeks, i made an appt with a nearby gynae just to confirm my pregnancy as I needed a confirmation to make an appt with my endocrine doc for thyroid medicine adjustment. my regular gynae was away during the long CNY period n could only see me in my 7+ week.
This gynae whom i saw, only detected a sac n kept saying it looks smaller than what it should be n he kept asking repeatedly if i was bleeding. He then told me that i should refrain from doing many things to see him back in 2 weeks. if no heartbeat or embryo, then it's an unhealthy pregnancy. i really felt like breaking down in the room. I felt like my dream was ending n a miscarriage was impending. The next few days, I was very paranoid n kept checking for bleeding. my sis said i should go to another gynae for second opinion just to ease my mind. But in the end, i decided to again surrender to God, to just trust in HIM n just wait for my regular gynae to return.
When we visited my regular gynae last week, i relayed the earlier gynae's appt experience to her. She said at 5+ weeks, it is normal to only detect the sac n that there should be an embryo now. The scan she did proved it. We saw the bb n heard the strong heartbeat. Everything was normal!
I am so relieved.
I believe when we surrender to God, we let go n let God work his miracles. He knows when things should happen for us. He already has a plan for all of us. Every day I am so thankful for this little life growing inside of me. Every night I say a prayer for the little one. Hope this pregnancy will be a smooth n exciting journey for our little growing family.
