Hi mummies!
I've been a consistent silent reader since March. Gave birth to a healthy baby girl (first child) on the 16th of May and I really love his forum thread! Thank you for sharing so many things
But it's time for me to say hi and rant cause my patience is being pushed to the limit unfortunately.
I'm currently tbf as and when necessary and pumping 2-4 times a day.. Not working currently so I do aim to bf for as long as I can.
I'm ranting here because I feel under appreciated by the hb
My MIL has been diagnosed with stage 4 lung Ca in end Jan this year and I have been by her side (she has 4 sons but I'm the only DIL that's not working) ever since. I spent nights in the hospital with a big pregnant belly and tried my best to keep her comfortable. In March, my mother has been diagnosed with stage 4 breast Ca and that's when I started feeling more stressed out. (Thank god same hospital.)
The plan was for my mum to move in with me for my confinement but because of her disease, it's just me and the hb taking care of the baby. My mum's chemo started 1 week after my delivery and she's still going through it now as I type.. My MIL is finally at home after 6 months in hospital but her disease is showing no sign of improvement.
So right now I have to split myself up into 2 to take care of my MIL and my mother and to bring my LO everywhere I go.. I've been bringing her out to hospitals and everywhere I go. My hb works shifts so there are some nights when I'm all alone with LO.
He's accusing me of spending too much time with my mother and now seeing my MIL enough.. Just because I said I want to stay at home and try to catch up on some sleep today instead of being by my MIL's side.
I know he gets less sleep than I do cause of the shift work and takes care of LO whenever we're outside together but I just feel so exhausted right now

fasting month + breastfeeding may not be the best combination..
Sorry for the super long post! Just had to let it out..